#SushantSinghRajput #depression #artist #artistlife
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āĻāĻŽি āĻোāĻ¨ো āĻŽāĻ¨োāĻŦৈāĻ্āĻাāĻ¨িāĻ, Psychologist , āĻŦা social media homicide detective āĻ¨āĻ।
āĻāĻŽি āĻāĻāĻāĻ¨ āĻ˛েāĻāĻ , āĻāĻāĻāĻ¨ artist āĻāĻŦং āĻāĻ āĻ˛েāĻা āĻা āĻ¸েāĻ āĻিāĻ¤্āĻ¤িāĻ¤েāĻ ।
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āĻāĻāĻু āĻুāĻ˛ে āĻŦāĻ˛ি । āĻāĻāĻা āĻোāĻ্āĻ āĻāĻāĻ¨া āĻĻিā§ে āĻļুāĻ°ু āĻāĻ°āĻি , āĻ¸āĻ¤্āĻ¯ি āĻāĻāĻ¨া , āĻাāĻ˛্āĻĒāĻ¨িāĻ āĻ¨ā§ ।
āĻŦেāĻļিāĻĻিāĻ¨ āĻāĻেāĻ° āĻোāĻĨাā§ āĻ¨ā§ , just few months before ।
31st December , 2019
āĻāĻŽি āĻāĻŽাāĻ° favourite bar Opium e āĻŦāĻ¸ে ।
āĻāĻা ।
āĻāĻ¸্āĻ¤ে āĻāĻ¸্āĻ¤ে āĻুāĻ āĻুāĻ āĻāĻ°ে āĻāĻ° āĻাāĻ°িāĻĒাāĻļেāĻ° āĻ˛োāĻāĻāĻ¨ āĻĻেāĻāĻি āĻāĻ° āĻাāĻ্āĻি ।
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āĻ¨েāĻāĻĻিāĻ¨েāĻ° āĻ¯াāĻ¤াā§াāĻ¤ āĻ¤াāĻ āĻŦাāĻ°েāĻ° āĻ¸āĻŦ্āĻŦাāĻ waiter Manager āĻুāĻŦ āĻাāĻ˛ো āĻāĻ°ে āĻেāĻ¨ে , āĻাāĻ˛োāĻŦাāĻ¸ে ।
āĻāĻāĻা āĻ
āĻ¤্āĻ¤্āĻŦিā§āĻ¤া āĻŦāĻ˛āĻ¤ে āĻĒাāĻ°েāĻ¨ ।
āĻšāĻাā§ , āĻĒাāĻļেāĻ° table āĻĨেāĻে āĻāĻāĻা āĻāĻ˛া āĻেāĻ¸ে āĻāĻ˛ো " why are you so lonely ? "
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Artists are always lonely .
āĻুāĻ°ে āĻĻেāĻāĻ˛াāĻŽ 3āĻে āĻ
āĻ˛্āĻĒ āĻŦā§āĻ¸্āĻ āĻেāĻ˛ে , āĻŦুāĻāĻ¤ে āĻĻেāĻ°ি āĻšāĻ˛ো āĻ¨া āĻ¯ে sec 5 āĻāĻ° āĻোāĻ¨ IT āĻোāĻŽ্āĻĒাāĻ¨িāĻ° employee ।
āĻĒ্āĻ°āĻļ্āĻ¨ āĻা āĻ
āĻŦāĻļ্āĻ¯ āĻāĻāĻāĻ¨ āĻāĻ°েāĻে , āĻāĻāĻা āĻিāĻ্āĻাāĻ¸াāĻŦāĻ§āĻ āĻŽুāĻ āĻāĻ°ে ।
āĻāĻāĻু āĻ
āĻ¸্āĻ¸āĻ¸্āĻĨি āĻšāĻ˛ো , kind of an uneasyness.
āĻāĻ¸্āĻ¤ে āĻāĻ˛াāĻা āĻāĻāĻু āĻāĻŽ্āĻীāĻ° āĻāĻ°ে āĻŦāĻ˛āĻ˛াāĻŽ " I am waiting for someone ".
āĻ¤াāĻ°āĻĒāĻ° āĻāĻŦাāĻ° āĻāĻŽাāĻ° āĻ্āĻ˛াāĻ¸āĻা āĻšাāĻĨে āĻ¤ুāĻ˛ে āĻ¨িāĻ˛াāĻŽ ।
" But it doesn't seems so , you are sitting here for last 3 hours "
āĻেāĻ˛েāĻাāĻ° āĻĒ্āĻ°āĻļ্āĻ¨ āĻļেāĻˇ āĻšā§āĻ¨ি āĻŦুāĻāĻ˛াāĻŽ । āĻā§িāĻ° āĻĻিāĻে āĻ¤াāĻাāĻ˛াāĻŽ , 4āĻেāĻ° āĻ¸āĻŽā§ āĻĸুāĻেāĻিāĻ˛াāĻŽ āĻāĻāĻ¨ 7 āĻা āĻŦাāĻে ।
āĻāĻ¤āĻ্āĻˇāĻ¨ āĻā§ি āĻĻেāĻাāĻ° āĻāĻ্āĻে āĻŦা āĻĒ্āĻ°ā§োāĻāĻ¨ āĻোāĻ¨োāĻাāĻ āĻĒā§েāĻ¨ি ।
āĻāĻŦাāĻ° irritated āĻšāĻ˛াāĻŽ ।
āĻেāĻ˛ে āĻাāĻ° āĻোāĻে āĻোāĻ āĻ°েāĻে āĻŦāĻ˛āĻ˛াāĻŽ " why don't you mind your own business "
Immediately āĻŽুāĻেāĻ° expression āĻা āĻŦāĻĻāĻ˛ে āĻেāĻ˛, āĻুāĻ°ে āĻেāĻ˛ āĻ¨িāĻেāĻ° āĻেāĻŦিāĻ˛ে ।
āĻ¸āĻ্āĻে āĻ¯ে āĻেāĻ˛ে āĻĻুāĻো āĻিāĻ˛ āĻিāĻ্āĻ¯েāĻ¸ āĻāĻ°āĻ˛ো āĻ¯ে āĻāĻŽি āĻি āĻāĻ¤্āĻ¤āĻ° āĻĻিāĻ˛াāĻŽ ।
āĻ¯াāĻāĻšোāĻ , āĻŦেāĻ°িā§ে āĻ¯াāĻā§াāĻ° āĻāĻে āĻāĻ āĻেāĻ˛ে āĻা āĻāĻŦাāĻ° āĻāĻĨা āĻŦāĻ˛āĻ˛ো , āĻ¤āĻāĻ¨ 8:30 pm āĻŦাāĻে ।
" āĻেāĻ āĻ¤ো āĻāĻāĻ¨ো āĻāĻ˛ো āĻ¨া " āĻšেāĻ¸েāĻ āĻŦāĻ˛āĻ˛ো ।
āĻ¸āĻ্āĻে " Happy New Year, you shouldn't be alone in this day atleast " āĻ āĻŦāĻ˛āĻ˛ো ।
āĻāĻŽিāĻ āĻšেāĻ¸ে " same to you " āĻŦāĻ˛āĻ˛াāĻŽ ।
āĻāĻ āĻāĻāĻ¨া āĻা āĻĻিā§ে āĻļুāĻ°ু āĻāĻ°াāĻ° āĻāĻĻেāĻļ্āĻ¯ āĻāĻāĻাāĻ , āĻ¯ে āĻŽাāĻ¨ুāĻˇেāĻ° common perception about artists are somewhat different than artist's behaviour .
āĻাāĻ˛āĻে āĻ¸াāĻ°াāĻা āĻĻিāĻ¨ āĻļুāĻ§ু āĻ˛োāĻāĻāĻ¨ social media aay depression , āĻāĻাāĻীāĻ¤্āĻŦ āĻāĻāĻ¸āĻŦ āĻĻিā§ে āĻļুāĻ°ু āĻāĻ°েāĻে āĻāĻ° āĻļেāĻˇ āĻāĻ°েāĻে " āĻāĻŽি āĻĒাāĻļে āĻāĻি , āĻāĻŽাāĻে ph āĻāĻ°āĻ¤ে āĻĒাāĻ°ো āĻāĻা feel āĻāĻ°āĻ˛ে , just pickup your phone and call " āĻāĻ āĻĻিā§ে ।
But an artist is always lonely , he or she wants to be .
Any form of art , āĻ¸েāĻা āĻŦāĻ āĻŦা āĻāĻŦিāĻ¤া āĻ˛েāĻা āĻšোāĻ , āĻŦা acting hok , movie direction , any form of art .
āĻ¸েāĻা Rabindranath āĻŦা Albert Camus āĻŦা Writhik Ghatak āĻŦা Sushant Singh Rajput āĻšোāĻ āĻ¨া āĻেāĻ¨ ।
āĻĻā§া āĻāĻ°ে āĻāĻা āĻাāĻŦāĻŦেāĻ¨ āĻ¨া āĻ¯ে āĻāĻŽি āĻāĻĻেāĻ° āĻে compare āĻāĻ°āĻি āĻŦা āĻ¨িāĻেāĻে āĻāĻĻেāĻ° āĻ¸াāĻĨে āĻ¤ুāĻ˛āĻ¨া āĻāĻ°āĻি ।
āĻĒ্āĻ˛িāĻ !!!
They were all artists and hence the union set .
āĻšā§āĻ¤ো āĻāĻ¤āĻĻূāĻ° āĻĒোā§ে āĻিāĻু āĻ˛োāĻāĻāĻ¨ āĻŽāĻ¨ে āĻŽāĻ¨ে āĻাāĻŦāĻ¤ে āĻļুāĻ°ু āĻāĻ°েāĻেāĻ¨ āĻ¯ে āĻŦেāĻা āĻĻুāĻো āĻŦāĻ āĻি āĻ¨া āĻ˛িāĻেāĻে āĻāĻ° 4-5 āĻা newspaper e āĻিāĻ¨া āĻāĻŦি āĻāĻ° review āĻŦেāĻ°িā§েāĻে , āĻšেāĻŦ্āĻŦি āĻŦোāĻĻ্āĻ§া āĻšā§ে āĻেāĻে , āĻŦিāĻļাāĻ˛ artist āĻাāĻŦāĻে āĻ¨িāĻেāĻে ।
āĻ¨া , āĻাāĻŦāĻি āĻ¨া !
āĻিāĻ¨্āĻ¤ু as an artist āĻিāĻু sotti āĻāĻĨা āĻŦāĻ˛āĻি , how an artist honestly feels , and it might be that it's not same for all artist.
Loneliness and depression somehow brings creativity in an artist.
Depression is part and parcel of an artist's life .
It might be due to a sudden loss like death of a very close one , āĻেāĻ āĻেā§ে āĻāĻ˛ে āĻেāĻিāĻ˛ো , lot many things.
Satyajit Ray lost his father at a very young age.
Rabindranath Tagore had to perform the last rites of his own children.
A sudden loss and an acute loss creates depression and it might be life long.
That also fires the creative cells .
But this kind of depression doesn't typically and generally leads in ending one's own life.
You know when an artist get acutely depressed ?
When he or she doesn't get good quality work , or the recognition of the work.
āĻāĻ¤্āĻŦিāĻ āĻুāĻŽাāĻ° āĻāĻāĻ is a burning example , if you read about his life you will know.
āĻĒ্āĻ°āĻĨāĻŽāĻŦাāĻ° āĻ¯েāĻŦাāĻ° " āĻŽেāĻে āĻĸাāĻা āĻ¤াঁāĻ°া " āĻĻেāĻেāĻিāĻ˛াāĻŽ āĻ¸āĻ¤্āĻ¯ি āĻĻুāĻো feelings āĻšā§েāĻিāĻ˛ ।
āĻ
āĻŦাāĻ āĻšā§েāĻিāĻ˛াāĻŽ āĻ¯ে āĻāĻ°āĻāĻŽ āĻ¸িāĻ¨েāĻŽা āĻ āĻšā§ , āĻāĻ° āĻ
āĻ¸āĻŽ্āĻāĻŦ āĻ°াāĻ āĻšā§েāĻিāĻ˛ āĻāĻা āĻেāĻŦে āĻ¯ে āĻ¯ে āĻŽাāĻ¨ুāĻˇāĻা āĻāĻŽāĻ¨ āĻāĻāĻি āĻ
āĻŽূāĻ˛্āĻ¯ āĻĢিāĻ˛্āĻŽ āĻŦাāĻ¨াāĻ˛ো āĻ¤াāĻে āĻ¤িāĻ˛ে āĻ¤িāĻ˛ে āĻŽāĻ°āĻ¤ে āĻšāĻ˛ো ।
An artist is forever lonely , he don't really care if someone is calling him to say "Hi, Hello" or not.
Loneliness does helps in serious level of concentration which is very much required in any form of art.
āĻļāĻŦ্āĻĻ āĻ°া āĻāĻ¨্āĻŽাā§ , āĻļāĻŦ্āĻĻ āĻ˛েāĻা āĻ¯াā§āĻ¨া ।
āĻাāĻ¨িāĻ¨া āĻ˛োāĻāĻāĻ¨ āĻŦিāĻļ্āĻŦাāĻ¸ āĻāĻ°āĻŦে āĻি āĻ¨া , āĻিāĻ¨্āĻ¤ু āĻāĻŽাāĻ° āĻ
āĻ¨েāĻ āĻ˛েāĻা āĻāĻŽি āĻ¸্āĻŦāĻĒ্āĻ¨ে āĻĻেāĻেāĻি ।
Each and every words .
Words are born not written.
āĻāĻŽাāĻ° āĻŽা āĻāĻŽাāĻে āĻেāĻ˛েāĻŦেāĻ˛াā§ āĻĻুāĻĒুāĻ°ে āĻāĻ˛্āĻĒ āĻĒā§ে āĻļোāĻ¨াāĻ¤েāĻ¨ āĻāĻ° āĻŦāĻ˛āĻ¤েāĻ¨ , āĻ°াāĻ¤ে āĻুāĻŽোāĻ˛ে āĻŽাāĻĨাā§ āĻ¸āĻ°āĻ¸্āĻŦāĻ¤ী āĻ াāĻুāĻ° āĻāĻ¸েāĻ¨ ।
āĻ¸āĻ¤্āĻ¯ি āĻি āĻāĻ¸েāĻ¨ āĻাāĻ¨ি āĻ¨া , āĻ¤āĻŦে āĻŽা āĻŦāĻ˛েāĻে āĻ¤ো , āĻ¤াāĻ āĻŽāĻ¨ āĻĨেāĻে āĻŦিāĻļ্āĻŦাāĻ¸ āĻāĻ°ি ।
āĻāĻāĻāĻ¨ āĻুāĻŦ contemporary world renowned writer āĻāĻ āĻীāĻŦāĻ¨ āĻĨেāĻে āĻĻু āĻ˛াāĻāĻ¨ āĻ˛িāĻāĻি।
āĻ¨াāĻŽ Haruki Murakami .
āĻāĻŽাāĻ° one of the favourite writer .
Japan āĻāĻ° āĻ¸āĻŦ āĻেā§ে famous writer at present , nobel prize āĻĒেāĻ˛ো āĻŦāĻ˛ে āĻিāĻু āĻŦāĻāĻ°েāĻ° āĻŽāĻ§্āĻ¯ে ।
Murakami use to run a jazz bar called " Peter Cat " .
He married his childhood girlfriend but they never had kids.
It was not that he was not capable , but he felt he cant devote time to a child from his writing.
Such is the level of sacrifice for a writer to be lonely.
āĻোāĻ° 3 āĻে āĻ¤ে āĻāĻ েāĻ¨ āĻুāĻŽ āĻĨেāĻে । āĻĻৌā§াāĻ¤ে āĻŦেāĻ°োāĻ¨ , he is also a marathon runner .
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āĻ¤ āĻāĻ°ে āĻāĻ াāĻ° āĻāĻāĻাāĻ āĻাāĻ°āĻŖ āĻ¯ে āĻ¤āĻāĻ¨ āĻĒৃāĻĨিāĻŦী āĻুāĻŽিā§ে āĻĨাāĻāĻŦে ।
No one will be there to disturb him .
An artist likes to be lonely .
āĻ¤াāĻ°āĻĒāĻ° āĻĢিāĻ°ে āĻāĻ¸ে āĻ˛িāĻāĻ¤ে āĻŦāĻ¸েāĻ¨ , āĻŦিāĻেāĻ˛ে āĻāĻāĻু āĻšাāĻāĻ¤ে āĻŦেāĻ°োāĻ¨ āĻāĻ° by 7 pm he goes to sleep .
Acute depression arises for an artist when he is not getting quality work or not getting his due recognition.
That's when probably an artist start feeling really acutely broken.
Yes, in those delicate times if a close friend lends his shoulders its always good .
But the point I am trying to make after all these gibberish of mine is that , its that system or bunch of powerful people or the faternity or the ugly underworld which leads an artist to his death.
āĻ¯াāĻ°া āĻ¤াāĻে āĻ¤াāĻ° āĻাāĻেāĻ° āĻŽূāĻ˛্āĻ¯ āĻĻেā§ āĻ¨া āĻŦা āĻাāĻ āĻ āĻĻেā§ āĻ¨া ।
āĻ¸েāĻা āĻāĻ¤্āĻŦিāĻ āĻুāĻŽাāĻ° āĻāĻāĻ āĻিংāĻŦা Sushant Singh Rajput , whoever it is.
Some die each day , āĻ¤িāĻ˛ে āĻ¤িāĻ˛ে āĻŽāĻ°া āĻ¯াāĻে āĻŦāĻ˛ে , and some can't take the burden anymore and ends it abruptly.
Artists are all lonely .
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