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āĻāĻŽি āĻোāύো āĻŽāύোāĻŦৈāĻ্āĻাāύিāĻ, Psychologist , āĻŦা social media homicide detective āύāĻ।
āĻāĻŽি āĻāĻāĻāύ āϞেāĻāĻ , āĻāĻāĻāύ artist āĻāĻŦং āĻāĻ āϞেāĻা āĻা āϏেāĻ āĻিāϤ্āϤিāϤেāĻ ।
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āĻāĻāĻু āĻুāϞে āĻŦāϞি । āĻāĻāĻা āĻোāĻ্āĻ āĻāĻāύা āĻĻিā§ে āĻļুāϰু āĻāϰāĻি , āϏāϤ্āϝি āĻāĻāύা , āĻাāϞ্āĻĒāύিāĻ āύ⧠।
āĻŦেāĻļিāĻĻিāύ āĻāĻেāϰ āĻোāĻĨাā§ āύ⧠, just few months before ।
31st December , 2019
āĻāĻŽি āĻāĻŽাāϰ favourite bar Opium e āĻŦāϏে ।
āĻāĻা ।
āĻāϏ্āϤে āĻāϏ্āϤে āĻুāĻ āĻুāĻ āĻāϰে āĻāϰ āĻাāϰিāĻĒাāĻļেāϰ āϞোāĻāĻāύ āĻĻেāĻāĻি āĻāϰ āĻাāĻ্āĻি ।
āĻ
āύেāĻāĻĻিāύেāϰ āϝাāϤাā§াāϤ āϤাāĻ āĻŦাāϰেāϰ āϏāĻŦ্āĻŦাāĻ waiter Manager āĻুāĻŦ āĻাāϞো āĻāϰে āĻেāύে , āĻাāϞোāĻŦাāϏে ।
āĻāĻāĻা āĻ
āϤ্āϤ্āĻŦিā§āϤা āĻŦāϞāϤে āĻĒাāϰেāύ ।
āĻšāĻাā§ , āĻĒাāĻļেāϰ table āĻĨেāĻে āĻāĻāĻা āĻāϞা āĻেāϏে āĻāϞো " why are you so lonely ? "
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Artists are always lonely .
āĻুāϰে āĻĻেāĻāϞাāĻŽ 3āĻে āĻ
āϞ্āĻĒ āĻŦā§āϏ্āĻ āĻেāϞে , āĻŦুāĻāϤে āĻĻেāϰি āĻšāϞো āύা āϝে sec 5 āĻāϰ āĻোāύ IT āĻোāĻŽ্āĻĒাāύিāϰ employee ।
āĻĒ্āϰāĻļ্āύ āĻা āĻ
āĻŦāĻļ্āϝ āĻāĻāĻāύ āĻāϰেāĻে , āĻāĻāĻা āĻিāĻ্āĻাāϏাāĻŦāϧāĻ āĻŽুāĻ āĻāϰে ।
āĻāĻāĻু āĻ
āϏ্āϏāϏ্āĻĨি āĻšāϞো , kind of an uneasyness.
āĻāϏ্āϤে āĻāϞাāĻা āĻāĻāĻু āĻāĻŽ্āĻীāϰ āĻāϰে āĻŦāϞāϞাāĻŽ " I am waiting for someone ".
āϤাāϰāĻĒāϰ āĻāĻŦাāϰ āĻāĻŽাāϰ āĻ্āϞাāϏāĻা āĻšাāĻĨে āϤুāϞে āύিāϞাāĻŽ ।
" But it doesn't seems so , you are sitting here for last 3 hours "
āĻেāϞেāĻাāϰ āĻĒ্āϰāĻļ্āύ āĻļেāώ āĻšā§āύি āĻŦুāĻāϞাāĻŽ । āĻā§িāϰ āĻĻিāĻে āϤাāĻাāϞাāĻŽ , 4āĻেāϰ āϏāĻŽā§ āĻĸুāĻেāĻিāϞাāĻŽ āĻāĻāύ 7 āĻা āĻŦাāĻে ।
āĻāϤāĻ্āώāύ āĻā§ি āĻĻেāĻাāϰ āĻāĻ্āĻে āĻŦা āĻĒ্āϰā§োāĻāύ āĻোāύোāĻাāĻ āĻĒā§েāύি ।
āĻāĻŦাāϰ irritated āĻšāϞাāĻŽ ।
āĻেāϞে āĻাāϰ āĻোāĻে āĻোāĻ āϰেāĻে āĻŦāϞāϞাāĻŽ " why don't you mind your own business "
Immediately āĻŽুāĻেāϰ expression āĻা āĻŦāĻĻāϞে āĻেāϞ, āĻুāϰে āĻেāϞ āύিāĻেāϰ āĻেāĻŦিāϞে ।
āϏāĻ্āĻে āϝে āĻেāϞে āĻĻুāĻো āĻিāϞ āĻিāĻ্āϝেāϏ āĻāϰāϞো āϝে āĻāĻŽি āĻি āĻāϤ্āϤāϰ āĻĻিāϞাāĻŽ ।
āϝাāĻāĻšোāĻ , āĻŦেāϰিā§ে āϝাāĻā§াāϰ āĻāĻে āĻāĻ āĻেāϞে āĻা āĻāĻŦাāϰ āĻāĻĨা āĻŦāϞāϞো , āϤāĻāύ 8:30 pm āĻŦাāĻে ।
" āĻেāĻ āϤো āĻāĻāύো āĻāϞো āύা " āĻšেāϏেāĻ āĻŦāϞāϞো ।
āϏāĻ্āĻে " Happy New Year, you shouldn't be alone in this day atleast " āĻ āĻŦāϞāϞো ।
āĻāĻŽিāĻ āĻšেāϏে " same to you " āĻŦāϞāϞাāĻŽ ।
āĻāĻ āĻāĻāύা āĻা āĻĻিā§ে āĻļুāϰু āĻāϰাāϰ āĻāĻĻেāĻļ্āϝ āĻāĻāĻাāĻ , āϝে āĻŽাāύুāώেāϰ common perception about artists are somewhat different than artist's behaviour .
āĻাāϞāĻে āϏাāϰাāĻা āĻĻিāύ āĻļুāϧু āϞোāĻāĻāύ social media aay depression , āĻāĻাāĻীāϤ্āĻŦ āĻāĻāϏāĻŦ āĻĻিā§ে āĻļুāϰু āĻāϰেāĻে āĻāϰ āĻļেāώ āĻāϰেāĻে " āĻāĻŽি āĻĒাāĻļে āĻāĻি , āĻāĻŽাāĻে ph āĻāϰāϤে āĻĒাāϰো āĻāĻা feel āĻāϰāϞে , just pickup your phone and call " āĻāĻ āĻĻিā§ে ।
But an artist is always lonely , he or she wants to be .
Any form of art , āϏেāĻা āĻŦāĻ āĻŦা āĻāĻŦিāϤা āϞেāĻা āĻšোāĻ , āĻŦা acting hok , movie direction , any form of art .
āϏেāĻা Rabindranath āĻŦা Albert Camus āĻŦা Writhik Ghatak āĻŦা Sushant Singh Rajput āĻšোāĻ āύা āĻেāύ ।
āĻĻā§া āĻāϰে āĻāĻা āĻাāĻŦāĻŦেāύ āύা āϝে āĻāĻŽি āĻāĻĻেāϰ āĻে compare āĻāϰāĻি āĻŦা āύিāĻেāĻে āĻāĻĻেāϰ āϏাāĻĨে āϤুāϞāύা āĻāϰāĻি ।
āĻĒ্āϞিāĻ !!!
They were all artists and hence the union set .
āĻšā§āϤো āĻāϤāĻĻূāϰ āĻĒোā§ে āĻিāĻু āϞোāĻāĻāύ āĻŽāύে āĻŽāύে āĻাāĻŦāϤে āĻļুāϰু āĻāϰেāĻেāύ āϝে āĻŦেāĻা āĻĻুāĻো āĻŦāĻ āĻি āύা āϞিāĻেāĻে āĻāϰ 4-5 āĻা newspaper e āĻিāύা āĻāĻŦি āĻāϰ review āĻŦেāϰিā§েāĻে , āĻšেāĻŦ্āĻŦি āĻŦোāĻĻ্āϧা āĻšā§ে āĻেāĻে , āĻŦিāĻļাāϞ artist āĻাāĻŦāĻে āύিāĻেāĻে ।
āύা , āĻাāĻŦāĻি āύা !
āĻিāύ্āϤু as an artist āĻিāĻু sotti āĻāĻĨা āĻŦāϞāĻি , how an artist honestly feels , and it might be that it's not same for all artist.
Loneliness and depression somehow brings creativity in an artist.
Depression is part and parcel of an artist's life .
It might be due to a sudden loss like death of a very close one , āĻেāĻ āĻেā§ে āĻāϞে āĻেāĻিāϞো , lot many things.
Satyajit Ray lost his father at a very young age.
Rabindranath Tagore had to perform the last rites of his own children.
A sudden loss and an acute loss creates depression and it might be life long.
That also fires the creative cells .
But this kind of depression doesn't typically and generally leads in ending one's own life.
You know when an artist get acutely depressed ?
When he or she doesn't get good quality work , or the recognition of the work.
āĻāϤ্āĻŦিāĻ āĻুāĻŽাāϰ āĻāĻāĻ is a burning example , if you read about his life you will know.
āĻĒ্āϰāĻĨāĻŽāĻŦাāϰ āϝেāĻŦাāϰ " āĻŽেāĻে āĻĸাāĻা āϤাঁāϰা " āĻĻেāĻেāĻিāϞাāĻŽ āϏāϤ্āϝি āĻĻুāĻো feelings āĻšā§েāĻিāϞ ।
āĻ
āĻŦাāĻ āĻšā§েāĻিāϞাāĻŽ āϝে āĻāϰāĻāĻŽ āϏিāύেāĻŽা āĻ āĻšā§ , āĻāϰ āĻ
āϏāĻŽ্āĻāĻŦ āϰাāĻ āĻšā§েāĻিāϞ āĻāĻা āĻেāĻŦে āϝে āϝে āĻŽাāύুāώāĻা āĻāĻŽāύ āĻāĻāĻি āĻ
āĻŽূāϞ্āϝ āĻĢিāϞ্āĻŽ āĻŦাāύাāϞো āϤাāĻে āϤিāϞে āϤিāϞে āĻŽāϰāϤে āĻšāϞো ।
An artist is forever lonely , he don't really care if someone is calling him to say "Hi, Hello" or not.
Loneliness does helps in serious level of concentration which is very much required in any form of art.
āĻļāĻŦ্āĻĻ āϰা āĻāύ্āĻŽাā§ , āĻļāĻŦ্āĻĻ āϞেāĻা āϝাā§āύা ।
āĻাāύিāύা āϞোāĻāĻāύ āĻŦিāĻļ্āĻŦাāϏ āĻāϰāĻŦে āĻি āύা , āĻিāύ্āϤু āĻāĻŽাāϰ āĻ
āύেāĻ āϞেāĻা āĻāĻŽি āϏ্āĻŦāĻĒ্āύে āĻĻেāĻেāĻি ।
Each and every words .
Words are born not written.
āĻāĻŽাāϰ āĻŽা āĻāĻŽাāĻে āĻেāϞেāĻŦেāϞাā§ āĻĻুāĻĒুāϰে āĻāϞ্āĻĒ āĻĒā§ে āĻļোāύাāϤেāύ āĻāϰ āĻŦāϞāϤেāύ , āϰাāϤে āĻুāĻŽোāϞে āĻŽাāĻĨাā§ āϏāϰāϏ্āĻŦāϤী āĻ াāĻুāϰ āĻāϏেāύ ।
āϏāϤ্āϝি āĻি āĻāϏেāύ āĻাāύি āύা , āϤāĻŦে āĻŽা āĻŦāϞেāĻে āϤো , āϤাāĻ āĻŽāύ āĻĨেāĻে āĻŦিāĻļ্āĻŦাāϏ āĻāϰি ।
āĻāĻāĻāύ āĻুāĻŦ contemporary world renowned writer āĻāĻ āĻীāĻŦāύ āĻĨেāĻে āĻĻু āϞাāĻāύ āϞিāĻāĻি।
āύাāĻŽ Haruki Murakami .
āĻāĻŽাāϰ one of the favourite writer .
Japan āĻāϰ āϏāĻŦ āĻেā§ে famous writer at present , nobel prize āĻĒেāϞো āĻŦāϞে āĻিāĻু āĻŦāĻāϰেāϰ āĻŽāϧ্āϝে ।
Murakami use to run a jazz bar called " Peter Cat " .
He married his childhood girlfriend but they never had kids.
It was not that he was not capable , but he felt he cant devote time to a child from his writing.
Such is the level of sacrifice for a writer to be lonely.
āĻোāϰ 3 āĻে āϤে āĻāĻ েāύ āĻুāĻŽ āĻĨেāĻে । āĻĻৌā§াāϤে āĻŦেāϰোāύ , he is also a marathon runner .
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āϤ āĻāϰে āĻāĻ াāϰ āĻāĻāĻাāĻ āĻাāϰāĻŖ āϝে āϤāĻāύ āĻĒৃāĻĨিāĻŦী āĻুāĻŽিā§ে āĻĨাāĻāĻŦে ।
No one will be there to disturb him .
An artist likes to be lonely .
āϤাāϰāĻĒāϰ āĻĢিāϰে āĻāϏে āϞিāĻāϤে āĻŦāϏেāύ , āĻŦিāĻেāϞে āĻāĻāĻু āĻšাāĻāϤে āĻŦেāϰোāύ āĻāϰ by 7 pm he goes to sleep .
Acute depression arises for an artist when he is not getting quality work or not getting his due recognition.
That's when probably an artist start feeling really acutely broken.
Yes, in those delicate times if a close friend lends his shoulders its always good .
But the point I am trying to make after all these gibberish of mine is that , its that system or bunch of powerful people or the faternity or the ugly underworld which leads an artist to his death.
āϝাāϰা āϤাāĻে āϤাāϰ āĻাāĻেāϰ āĻŽূāϞ্āϝ āĻĻেā§ āύা āĻŦা āĻাāĻ āĻ āĻĻেā§ āύা ।
āϏেāĻা āĻāϤ্āĻŦিāĻ āĻুāĻŽাāϰ āĻāĻāĻ āĻিংāĻŦা Sushant Singh Rajput , whoever it is.
Some die each day , āϤিāϞে āϤিāϞে āĻŽāϰা āϝাāĻে āĻŦāϞে , and some can't take the burden anymore and ends it abruptly.
Artists are all lonely .
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